Monday, April 20, 2015

Operation Lose The Baby Weight: Days 85 - 91 (Accountability Log)

Another week down, another week of doing pretty darn well up until the weekend!  I love race weekends because they give me an excuse to carb load, but then I tend to "celebrate" afterwards with more carbs and more calories.  :)  I don't have a race coming up this weekend, but I work four nights this week (which means catered food that I do really try to avoid but I'm always just so hungry after a shift) and Lucas will be out of town Thursday, Friday and Saturday night, which typically entails late night snacking because I stay up too late and my dinner wears off.  I have a low-carb recipe called Pizza Chicken I'm going to cook for dinner Thursday and Friday.  Hopefully I can lay off the extra snacking.

Vacation is in 2 1/2 weeks.  You know, that vacation to the beach.  I am still nowhere near where I want to be, and I'm really not looking forward to putting on a bathing suit.  But it is what it is, and I will enjoy myself regardless of my self-consciousness!


Day 85 (Monday, April 13th):

Total weight loss:  1.6 lbs (too many carbs over the weekend!)

Breakfast:  Scrambled eggs and 4 slices of chicken deli meat
Snack:  None
Lunch:  Tuna Salad and a few slices of cheese
Snack 1:  None
Snack 2:  String cheese, salted caramel peanuts and some Easter SweeTarts
Dinner:  NY strip, mashed potatoes and corn on the cob
After Dinner Snack:  Easter Peeps (1 serving)
Beer/Wine:  No

Run:  1.5 mile treadmill run
Workout:  No


Day 86 (Tuesday, April 14th):

Total weight loss:  3.2 lbs

Breakfast:  Scrambled eggs and blueberries
Snack:  None
Lunch:  Slim Fast shake
Snack 1:  None
Snack 2:  Salted caramel peanuts and mixed dried berries with Pepita seeds
Dinner:  Salmon patties, corn and peas
*After Dinner Snack: 
Beer/Wine:  No

Run:  No
Workout:  No


Day 87 (Wednesday, April 15th):

Total weight loss:  4.2 lbs

Breakfast:  Slim Fast shake
Snack:  None
Lunch:  Salad, cup of potato soup and one slice of pizza at Family Table
Snack 1:  None
Snack 2:  Carrots and hummus, grated Parmesan cheese (I was cooking with the cheese and stealing pinches)
Dinner:  Roasted chicken and green beans
Beer/Wine:  Yes

Run:  2 mile treadmill run
Workout:  No


Day 88 (Thursday, April 16th):

Total weight loss:  3.6 lbs (probably due to my sweet boozie schnapps drink last night)

Breakfast:  Slim Fast shake
Snack:  None
Lunch:  Parmesan shrimp (recipe from my low-carb cookbook)
Snack 1:  Easter SweeTarts and 1 Reese's egg
Snack 2:  None
Dinner:  Roasted chicken, peas, corn, mashed potatoes, a salmon patty and a few bites of Delano's grilled cheese sandwich (since he didn't finish it)
Beer/Wine:  No

Run:  No
Workout:  No


Day 89 (Friday, April 17th):

Total weight loss:  Don't remember!

Breakfast:  Slim Fast shake
Snack:  None
Lunch: Lunch Buffet at Forbidden City
Snack 1:  None
Snack 2:  None
Dinner:  1/2 Barnyard Pizza at Hill City Pizza (carb load meal)
Beer/Wine:  Yes

Run:  No
Workout:  No


Day 90 (Saturday, April 18th):

Total weight loss:  Didn't weigh

Breakfast:  1/2 pretzel roll with cream cheese (pre-race food)
Snack:   An orange and a banana (post-race food)
Lunch:   A few slices of deli meat with cheese
Snack 1:  None
Snack 2:  Fried zucchini chips with dipping sauce at Acropolis
Dinner:  1/2 Kaleidoscope Roll and 1/2 Lemongrass Chicken Salad at P.F. Chang's
Beer/Wine:  Yes

Run:  Chickamauga Chase 15k (9.3 miles)
Workout:  No


Day 91 (Sunday, April 19th):

Total weight loss:  4.0 lbs

Breakfast:  Double Meat Breakfast (scrambled eggs, bacon, sausage and grits) at Cracker Barrel
Snack:  None
Lunch:  None
Snack 1:  String cheese with a slice of deli meat, and a chunk of dairy-free blackberry cobbler
Snack 2:  None
Dinner:  Cheeseburger, baked beans, potato salad and strawberry shortcake at my parents' house
Beer/Wine:  Yes, just one

Run:  No
Workout:  No

Day 92 (Monday, April 20th):

Total weight loss:  2.8 lbs

Monday, April 13, 2015

Operation Lose The Baby Weight: Days 78 - 84 (Accountability Log)

Well......I only logged the first three days of this past week!  I forgot to log on Thursday, and then on Friday I was busy all day and never had the chance to sit down in front of my laptop.  The trend just continued through the rest of the weekend.  I went through this morning and filled in some of the spots for Thursday through Sunday - the spots I remembered immediately and didn't have to think about.  I'll try to do better this next week at keeping up with my log.  I'm not nearly as busy this next week so it shouldn't be hard!


Day 78 (Monday, April 6th):

Total weight loss:  1.0 lb (totally not representative of my true weight loss)

Breakfast:   Scrambled eggs and an avocado
Snack:  None
Lunch:  Steamed broccoli, buttered corn, green beans and a side salad with blue cheese dressing from Cheddar's

Snack 1:  None
Snack 2:  None
Dinner:  Baked pork roast, roasted sweet potatoes, side salad with blue cheese dressing
After-dinner snack:  1 Reese's Egg and 1 serving (10 pieces) of Easter Sweetarts 
Beer/Wine:  No

Run:  4 mile treadmill run
Workout:  No


Day 79 (Tuesday, April 7th):

Total weight loss:  5.0 lbs (that's more like it)

Breakfast:  Deli meat turkey and cheese slices
Snack:  None
Lunch:  Blackened whitefish on top of a large tossed salad at Beef O' Brady's (the "Big Catch Salad")
Snack 1:  None
Snack 2:  A serving of salted caramel peanuts and a few slices of cheese
Dinner:  Baked pork roast, sauteed greens and coleslaw
After-dinner snack:  None!  I totally forgot about my Easter candy!
Beer/Wine:  Yes, though not beer or wine.  I poured flavored vodka into my glass of water.  69 calories, zero everything else.  I think I've discovered my loophole.  Though that was the last of my flavored vodka.

Run:  No (no running until Saturday!)
Workout:  No


Day 80 (Wednesday, April 8th):

Total weight loss:  5.4 lbs

Breakfast:  Scrambled eggs and turkey bacon
Snack:  None
Lunch:  Arugula, roasted tomato and goat cheese stuffed chicken roller from Earth Fare

Snack 1:  None
Snack 2:  Carrots and hummus
Dinner:  Baked pork roast and coleslaw
After-dinner snack:  1 Reese's Egg and 1/2 serving (2) of Peeps bunnies
Beer/Wine:  No

Run:  No (no running until Saturday!)
Workout:  No


Day 81 (Thursday, April 9th):

Total weight loss:  5.2 lbs

Breakfast:
Snack: 
Lunch: 

Snack 1: 
Snack 2: 
Dinner:  
Beer/Wine:  

Run:  No
Workout:  No


Day 82 (Friday, April 10th):

Total weight loss: 

Breakfast:  String cheese and some strawberries
Snack: 
Lunch:  Quinoa and shrimp salad at Jason's Deli (super low calorie, but maybe not super low carb)

Snack 1: 
Snack 2: 
Dinner:  Box of Annie's Organic mac & cheese (pre-race carb-load meal, eaten at work)
Beer/Wine:  

Run:  No
Workout:  No


Day 83 (Saturday, April 11th):

Total weight loss: 

Breakfast:  Toast with cream cheese (pre-race meal)
Snack:   Several oranges, a bag of trail mix and a granola bar (post-race food)
Lunch:  Chicken Cobb Salad at Jason's Deli

Snack 1: 
Snack 2: 
Dinner:  Cheeseburger, Doritos and pasta salad at Emmalyn's birthday cookout
Beer/Wine:  

Run:  13.1 miles (Run at the Mill)
Workout:


Day 84 (Sunday, April 12th):

Total weight loss: 

Breakfast:  Egg white omelet with fresh fruit at Blue Plate
Snack: 
Lunch:   Leftover Drip Beef
Snack 1: 
Snack 2:  Easter candy
Dinner:  Shrimp Po Boy burrito with chips and salsa from Mojo Burrito
Beer/Wine:  

Run:  No
Workout:  No


Day 85 (Monday, April 13th):

Total weight loss:  2.6 lbs

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

My "Woe Is Me" Post

Last week sometime....I forget which day.....Thursday, maybe?

I am not a "woe is me" type of person.  I mean, I like to gab and gossip with my girlfriends and complain about the life normalities that we all seem to have these days in our mid-30s with kids and husbands and jobs and plain ole' adulthood.......but I know how good my life is and I don't troll social media for sympathy over anything.  That's just not me.

Pardon the super crappy grammar of this meme.  But you get the point.

And I am definitely not trolling for any sympathy now.  I've just had a few glasses of wine and so am blogging honestly.  Well......I always blog honestly.  This time it's just not as quirky and funny as it usually is.  BECAUSE WE ALL KNOW I'M DAMN FUNNY.  ;)

P.S......If someone could tell Piper (my hound dog) to stop whistling/whining downstairs, that'd be great.  GO TO BED, DOG.  THE TORNADO IS OVER.  I PROMISE I WILL DO MY BEST TO SAVE YOUR LIFE IF IT COMES DOWN TO THAT.

Anyways......my big "woe" of the moment......which is no secret to those of you who follow my blog......is my current weight and post-Baby-#2-belly.  Which is such a selfish and petty thing to "woe" over.  I mean - really - there are sooooooooooooo many more MUCH BIGGER problems out there in the world.  And me bitching about my body image doesn't even fall into the kinda-sorta-maybe-a-tad-bit-little-bit-bitty-bit-important pile.  Not at all.  But since it's an issue I'm dealing with personally, and since I'm not some big blogger star trying to maintain any certain image or perspective, I'm gonna bitch and whine about it!

I just thought Jessica Alba looked beautiful here and wanted to share.  I found this pic while searching for a pic of something completely different.

For those of you not "in the know", I was my fittest and trimmest since starting college (in 1997 - gulp) in the fall of 2011.  I started running for the first time EVER in November/December of 2010, completed my first 5k in February 2011, and then ran my first half marathon in September 2011.  I was still 20 pounds over where I started in my freshman year of college, but I was in much better shape and couldn't imagine actually weighing much less than my lowest 2011 weight.  I felt great all around, and I felt like I looked pretty great after so many years of letting things go and not caring BECAUSE BEER AND FOOD.

One of my skinny pics from February 2011, though I still lost about 8 more pounds by September.

After I had Delano, my body bounced back-ish pretty quickly.  I didn't get down to my pre-baby "fit" weight, but I got relatively close, and I was in my pre-preggo jeans about 3 weeks after I gave birth.  And it was awesome.  I still wanted to lose a few more pounds and some new excess flab, but I was also ready to give it a go for Baby #2.......which my body was like, HEY WAIT....YOU WANT TO BE PREGNANT?  OK, BAM! (Emeril-style), DONE!  YOU'RE PREGNANT RIGHT NOW!  YOU'RE WELCOME!

Baby #2......though I do love her dearly.......has done a number on my body.  And I was TOLD that it would so I should have been prepared.  Especially with having kids only 16 months apart.  But you're never really prepared for what you don't really want to hear.  I was hoping I'd be like one of those girls who just bounced back like a celebrity.  Like Kate Hudson (who gained over SEVENTY pounds during her first pregnancy).  Which of course is an absurd ideal.  But even just like one of my super small friends who bounced back as if they had never had a child (or second or third).  Or even just like the way I did after Baby #1.  But no, no.  I have instead become a frumpy version of myself.  A version of my old self during my pre-running days.  With crappier clothes.  And more gray hair.

A pic from my pre-running days.

Finished today - Tuesday - because I realized it was super late Thursday: 

I have been trying to get back into shape for a while now.  I've changed my eating habits a couple of different ways to see what works best for me and I've started running more frequently.  I've started adding in core exercises (though I'll admit I've kind of fallen off the wagon on that venture) and I've ordered cookbooks full of 400- and 500-calorie meal recipes.  I've Googled methods for losing weight left and right, avoiding all of the fad diet ideas (such as The Hot Dog Diet) and anything else super strict and not realistic.  I've also talked to friends about what has worked for them.  So I'm full of information and methods and theories and plans and ideas.....and yet here I still am.  Still frumpy and uncomfortable in my own skin.

Definitely not my goal!

I'm fully aware that I could be doing better.......I could be making sure that I'm running and/or working out a solid 5-6 days a week.  I could be eating even better than I am, even though I'm eating way better than I was......I could stop making excuses for days where I throw in the towel during a meal or two out of laziness or deliciousness.  And maybe all that betterness is what's holding me back.  Maybe I need to BE that person who wakes up every morning at 5:00 am to hit the treadmill.....or that person who hits the treadmill every night before bed (that's waaaay more likely of me).  Maybe I need to BE that person who refuses to cheat during my weight loss mission, because the cheat meals just aren't working for me.  Maybe I need to BE that person who does more than just running and a little core work here and there - maybe that worked for me before, but after two kids, it's not working now. 

On the plus side, even though I don't look any different from when I started doing things better for myself a few months ago (because I've lost a whole whopping 5 lbs), my running has DEFINITELY improved.  I did a half marathon in January (which was awful.....it was 18 degrees with a wind chill of 9 degrees, and I just didn't run well at all....it was painful), but then came back with a vengeance in February with a half marathon I was proud of.  A few weeks later (a little over 2 weeks ago) I ran another half marathon that I was also proud of.  And I have another half marathon this coming Saturday and I'm feeling good about it.  So I'm getting my groove back.  I'm running long distance again and it feels good and comfortable and I'm enjoying it.  And as I mentioned in a previous blog post, I've got a whole other set of races I'm already registered for (or eyeballing) over the next 10 months.  So things are falling into place in the running world.  They just need to fall in place in my physical appearance world.


If I would just buy cute clothes that FIT, I would probably feel a little better about my muffin top.  It would definitely keep me from wearing the same set of clothes week after week.  But since I refuse to remain the size that I am now, I refuse to waste the money to buy clothes in the size that would fit properly.  I have a pile of jeans sitting on my dresser that are all too small right now.  Some of them button (but it's an awful sight) and some of them won't even zip.  But I refuse to get rid of them because those are the jeans that I want to fit back into.  I also have a closet full of shirts that are not tight, but are form-fitted enough that I look ridiculous in them right now.  Those are the shirts I want to wear comfortably again.  But those clothes just sit there - waiting - because right now I'm stuck in my two pairs of "fat jeans" (which also don't fit quite right for their own reasons), yoga pants (YAY, STRETCHY) and standard T-shirts.

YES.

I know that all my "woeing" over a stubborn muffin top is silly and shallow.  I know there are girls out there who are a whole lot more self-conscious about their physical appearance than I am, whether they've had kids or not.  And I know that I'm not - in a general comparison - very big at all.  But it doesn't mean that I'm not still self-conscious about myself, or that I'm not frustrated that the results from the work I've done so far are just barely apparent.  I'm still a girl, and I still have a goal.  I'm just not a spring chicken anymore.  It's taking a whole lot more time and effort to reach this goal, and it's frustrating!

It's now late and time to go to bed.  But I thought I'd share the fruits of my labor....aka Baby #2.....for a smile moment.

:)

Monday, April 6, 2015

Operation Lose The Baby Weight: Days 71 - 77 (Accountability Log)

The "pro" of how things are moving along is that my weight loss now toggles between 4 and 6 lbs instead of between 2 and 4 lbs. 

(P.S. I don't count this past weekend in my tally, as I fully overindulged on high calorie/high-carb/fatty foods with it being Easter and the in-laws being in town.  I fully expect things to go back to normal next week.)

The "con" of how things are moving along is that it's been almost 80 days and my weight loss is ONLY in the 4-6 lb range.  I'm 4 weeks away from vacation and nowhere NEAR where I'd hoped I'd be.  At this point I wanted to be struggling with the last 5 lbs.......not still stuck in the first 5 lbs.

I said around the 45-day mark that if the next 45 days proved to be just as disappointing as the first 45, I would make the additional change of eliminating my daily evening beer and/or wine.  So starting today, that's what I'm going to do.  I made sure to drink my last Guinness in the fridge last night, so it wasn't there to tempt me this week.  There's still a glass of wine in the fridge, but I'll go pour it out here shortly.  Don't panic - it's not good wine.  It's leftover house wine from an event I worked recently. :)

I don't plan on not drinking EVER.....let's not get crazy, here.....I've got a birthday party coming up so I'm sure I'll have a beer or two there, and I've got a girls' night coming up and I fully intend to have a beer or glass of wine (or two) with dinner.  I'm just going to stop the empty calories and carbs on a daily basis and hope that it helps this weight drop off a little faster.

I'm also going to continue to eat low-carb and hit the treadmill and/or pavement as much as possible.  This next week is another "rest"week since I've got a half marathon coming up, but I should get in a final run on Monday and then maybe a few core workouts in during the week.  I just need to make sure I don't make myself sore for Saturday!


Day 71 (Monday, March 30th):

Total weight loss:  5.2 lbs

Breakfast:  Scrambled eggs and turkey bacon
Snack:  None
Lunch: Chicken roller stuffed with arugula, roasted tomatoes and goat cheese from the meat department at Earth Fare

Snack 1:  None
Snack 2:  None
Dinner:  "The Rembrandt" chicken salad from Rembrandt's
Beer/Wine:   Yes

Run:  No
Workout:   No


Day 72 (Tuesday, March 31st):

Total weight loss:  6.8 lbs

Breakfast:  Scrambled eggs
Snack: A serving of salted caramel peanuts
Lunch:  Chicken Tikki Masala meal by evol. (not super low carb - 32 carbs - but only 270 calories)
Snack 1: Slices of cheese and deli meat
Snack 2:  Strawberries
Dinner:  Low-carb chili (no beans) with cheese and sour cream
Beer/Wine:  Yes

Run:  1 mile treadmill run
Workout:  No


Day 73 (Wednesday, April 1st):

Total weight loss:  4.2 lbs

Breakfast:  Scrambled eggs
Snack: A handful of salted caramel peanuts and a jalapeno mozzarella string cheese
Lunch:  Tuna Salad and sliced pineapple

Snack 1:  A handful of Gardetto's snack mix
Snack 2:  None
Dinner:   Drip Beef Recipe (which was YUM), mashed potatoes and baked beans
Beer/Wine:  Yes

Run:  No
Workout:  No


Day 74 (Thursday, April 2nd):

Total weight loss:  5.8 lbs

Breakfast:  None
Snack:  None
Lunch:  Vera Cruz Chicken and Avocado Omelet, fresh fruit and a side of bacon at The Egg and I (everything but the bacon was from the "Smarter Choice" menu)
Snack 1:  None
Snack 2:  Oatmeal cream pie and 2 Little Debbie snack cakes (shaped like butterflies)
Dinner:  Power Chicken Hummus Bowl and an apple from Panera Bread
Late Night:  Burrito Supreme and soft taco from Taco Bell (that salad wore off a looooong time ago)
Beer/Wine:  Yes

Run:  No
Workout:  No


Day 75 (Friday, April 3rd):

Total weight loss:  5.0 lbs

Breakfast:  2 hard-boiled eggs
Snack: A serving of salted caramel peanuts
Lunch:  Pizza and Salad buffet at Portofino's (yep - I ate pizza)
Snack 1:  None
Snack 2:  Oyster crackers amped up with seasonings (my mother-in-law made them - they're addictive)
Dinner:  Drip beef, baked beans, slaw and one small homemade drop biscuit (also made by my MIL)
Beer/Wine:  Yes

Run:  No
Workout:  No


Day 76 (Saturday, April 4th):

Total weight loss:  4.4 lbs

Breakfast:  Scrambled eggs, bacon and cheese grits
Snack:  Oyster crackers (I CAN'T QUIT YOU, OYSTER CRACKERS)
Lunch:  Philly cheesesteak and homemade potato chips at Roy's Grill

Snack 1:  None
Snack 2:  None
Dinner:  Ensalada Fresca and some chips and salsa from Amigo
Beer/Wine:  Yes

Run:  No
Workout:  No


Day 77 (Sunday, April 5th):

Total weight loss:  2.2 lbs

Breakfast:  One piece of french toast and a piece of sausage (hubby's Easter breakfast)
Snack:  Oyster crackers (DAMN YOU, OYSTER CRACKERS)
Lunch:  Broiled trout, turnip greens, Lima beans, mashed potatoes and a piece of cornbread from The Epicurean
Snack 1:  None
Snack 2:  None
Dinner:  An Easter feast......'nuf said
Beer/Wine:  Yes

Run: 3.1 mile treadmill run
Workout:  No


Day 78 (Monday, April 6th):

Total weight loss:  1.0 lb